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My New Years Resolutions- for the rest of my life

2010-01-09T14:13:00.001-07:00

My New Years Resolutions

I want to be happy for no reason this year except that I am here and alive and I claim this moment as my own. It's mine. Its got my name on it!

This year, I want to spend more time in nature, not on the path near my home, with its iPods, and cell phones and incessant chatter, but deep in a forest, where the earth recognizes my step, and the ground kisses my feet as I walk.

This year, I want to say no, more often, and not feel guilty, and say yes, more often, and not feel embarrassed.

I want to take the time to grieve fully this year, for those people that I have lost and mourn those things that I shall never have or be again.

I want to hear the sounds of creation and I can't tell you what those sounds are, because I have never really heard them before. I 've been too busy for that. But their music beckons to me in the stillness when I have finally given up my need to control.

I want to see, really see the sights of the universe and I can't tell you what those sights are, because I have never really seen them before. I've had my eyes closed. But their vision haunts me in my dreams and gently calls forth to me in my waking hours.

I want to take the child in me out to play more this year and step in mud puddles, get my feet wet, eat cotton candy, build a snowman, talk to strangers, kiss furry dogs and chase mangy cats.

This year I want to eat my spaghetti with a fork and forget about the spoon and get my face really dirty.

I want to get to know my teddy bear more this year. After all, he is really the only one who has always been there for me, in my darkest hour, comforting me and whispering sweet messages into my heart, that were more accurate than any psychic ever could be.

I want to see the world with new eyes this year, as if I have never seen it before, like an alien on an unfamiliar planet, and not take anything for granted.

This year, I want to talk less and say more. I want to taste more and eat less.

I want to write more about those things that really matter to me, with passion, the things that I know in my gut, the things that stir up my soul, and not give a damn about keywords or tags or where I rank in Google.

I want to sit with a flower this year and watch it bloom, and know what it feels like to finally surrender to life, to succumb to a purpose bigger than my own.

I want to talk to the moon and bask in the sun and gaze at the stars for hours and hours.

I want to be much more silly this year, and care much less about what people think of me. I have forgotten just how much fun being silly can be.

I want to laugh, harder than I have ever laughed before. And cry less for all of the pain and suffering that I think I can't fix, because I know that I can. Every time that I make the choice to be free, there is less suffering in the world, not a world with less pain, but less pain in the world.

I want to love more this year, not the sappy, greeting card kind of love they sell on Valentine's day cards, but a love that surpasses all distance, time, space and differences.

This year, I want to make friends with those parts of me that I am afraid of and attempt to do those things that still scare me to death. Well, at least some of them.

I want to appreciate more and complain less, accept more and judge less, forgive more and blame less. I want to ultimately do nothing and allow everything.

This year I want to break open the windows of my life and knock down the doors, remove the shackles and stare down the illusion until it sets me free.

So you won't find goals here or projects or timelines or objectives or plans or directions or bucket lists or targets.You'll only find me.

-Veronica Hay.... No, i didnt write this, but I read it this morning and had to catch my breath. These are the resolutions for the rest of my wondeful life!

Brynlee loves to be outside!!

2010-01-03T15:52:00.002-07:00

A couple weeks ago I went to pick up Brynlee from her grandparents and she was playing outside. She looked so i cute i had to take a couple pictures.

She loves to be outside...

Too cute for words!!

She had to have her hands in her pockets... She told me they were cold.

More Pictures...

2009-12-21T15:27:00.002-07:00

Here are some more of the pictures...

New Pictures

2009-12-16T20:43:00.006-07:00

Last Friday I got mine and Brynlees pictures done for holiday cards. The girl that did them did such a great job! Here are a couple for you to see. I will post more when I get the rest back.

She is so adorable! I love her to pieces!

This is one of my favorite pictures!

Brynlee Marie

2009-11-15T18:34:00.004-07:00

Here are few of my favorite pictures of Brynlee...

I love her hair curly... Even though she looks a little sad...

This picture was a little while ago but it is still one of my favorites!!

Brynlee was eating some pizza and she kept wanting me to take a picture... She looks so cute!!

HaLLoWeeN

2009-11-15T17:55:00.006-07:00

Earlier in the day I took Brynlee to the mall to see her dad and trick-or-treat at a couple stores... The around 8:00 I took her to a couple of the Neighbors to trick-or-treat... When the people would answer the door she was say "please" It was so cute! She really liked when she was able to pick what she wanted... She usually picked tootsie rolls or smarties...

My little Cinderella!!

She is the cutest Cinderella i have ever seen!!

Brynlee looking through all her candy...

Brynlee eating the candy she got...

2009-09-29T15:14:00.002-06:00

I know I have not posted anything for awhile... Life has been very crazy for me right now. I have a lot going on. Ive been working a lot and just dealing with everyday things.... Ill try to do better and post more often.

Here are some recent pictures of Brynlee....

This is at her at one of her Uncle Logan's Lacrosse games.

At a carnival that my friend Heathers son had for his football team.

Still at the carnival... Not sure what she is looking at but she sure looks cute!

Summer Time

2009-07-25T14:14:00.003-06:00

Brynlee loves to be outside. She would play outside all day if i would let her.

At her Nana and Papa Porters just relaxing on the hammock.

Playing outside of the condo.

She is too cute for words!!

Outside at the condo

Swimming at Grandmas

Fourth of July

2009-07-24T18:03:00.003-06:00

For the Fourth of July weekend I babysat my niece Zoie. I got the girls (Brynlee and Zoie) ready and we went to my In-Laws house for a BBQ.

Zoie Playing outside

Brynlee playing outside

The girls were so tired from playing outside all day.

2009-07-24T18:00:00.002-06:00

So I have been very busy the last month so I have not had time to blog... So i will get caught up now.

Day at the Park!

2009-06-20T19:39:00.003-06:00

A little while ago My In-law, David and I took Brynlee to Sugar House Park to play. She loved to see the ducks. It was a lot of fun to see Brynlee get excited to see them.

Brynlee pointing at the duckies

She was saying "WOW"

Brynlee looking at the duckies with her Papa and Nana

Brynlee going a ride in her stroller. . . My little Miss Hollywood!

David and Brynlee

Swimming!!

2009-06-20T19:15:00.007-06:00

As most of you know my mom has a swimming pool in her backyard. A couple weeks ago Megan came over and we took the kids swimming. Brynlee didn't like the pool at first but once she got use to it she didn't want to get out. Little Conner was so cute with his life jacket on. He loved to just float around. Rylen and Zoie love to go swimming too! It is a lot of fun that Brynlee gets to see her cousins.

Brynlee, Conner, Zoie and Rylen

Brynlee and Rylen

Conner

Brynlee

Zoie and Rylen

Mothers Day

2009-05-10T15:48:00.008-06:00

Since David had to work all day Brynlee and I went to my moms house for Mothers Day. It was a relaxing day. My sister Heather made lunch for everyone. After lunch Brynlee and Rylen wanted to play outside...

Brynlee needs to learn to share. She was not too happy that Rylen was playing with the car that she wanted to play with.

Once Rylen got out of the car Brynlee got to play with it...

I think this picture is so cute... Rylen wanted a picture of Brynlee and him together so he was trying to make her smile.

This is Rylen riding his new bike he got for his Birthday.

Rylens Birthday

2009-05-10T15:14:00.010-06:00

On April 24th my nephew Rylen turned 3. We had a Birthday party for him at my moms house. My sister just invited family and some close friends. We had a BBQ at my moms house. Then we had Rylen open his presents. His favorite present he got was a bike. He was so excited when he saw it.

Easter!!

2009-04-12T15:02:00.009-06:00

We spent the night at my moms house so on Easter morning we could all get up and see what the Easter bunny left for Brynlee and my little brother Logan. We all got up and there was a basket for all of us. My mom, David, Logan, Brynlee and Me.

This is Brynlee looking in her basket... With her eyes closed. :)

After we looked at the baskets we all got ready for church. We have church at 9:00am so we didnt have a lot of time. Brynlee got to wear the dress that my sister Heather got her for her birthday. It looks so cute!!

When we got home from church David and my little brother Logan set up an Easter egg hunt for Brynlee. They put the eggs out side for her to find.

Brynlee's 1st Birthday

2009-04-12T12:12:00.021-06:00

On March 25th it was Brynlee's 1st birthday. I decided to take the day off work to spend the day with her and to get things ready for her little birthday party. My sister Heather was able to come down from Logan for the party. I was really happy she was able to come down. Brynlee loves her. We went shopping for some party stuff and when we got back we decorated the house a little bit. When David got home from work he thought he needed to add some more decorations.

We had Brynlee's birthday party at my moms. I just invited family and some of my close friends. First we had a a mini BBQ. Then we had Brynlee open her presents. David and I got her some clothes and some toys. I also got her a book with all the Disney stories in it so i can read to her before she goes to bed. Heather got her a Easter dress.. It is so cute! My mom got her an outfit. My dad and my brother Logan go her some summer dresses. Megan got her a Little Mermaid doll. Brynlee loves Little Mermaid so she was so excited when she saw the doll. She didn't care about her other presents once she opened that present.

After Brynlee opened her presents it was time for cake. I made Brynlee her own cake and then another cake for everyone else. So i put Brynlee in a onsie so she woulnt ruin her outfit. We put her in her high chair and we all sang Happy Birthday to her. She didnt really know what to do with the candles so I had to blow them out for her. Then i gave her the cake that i made for her. She just looked at it and didnt know why i was giving it to her. I put her hand in the cake so that she would eat it. Then she realized that it was okay and began to eat the cake. She made a big mess. It was so cute to watch her. Here are some pictures of her eating her cake and the before and after cake.